In the meantime, I have been busily reading Church of Spies each night for our book club, as well as contemplating a few things...
You have may noticed via my ramblings on here that I have been very busy of late. Indeed, I have felt quite overwhelmed. I am self-aware enough to realize that the common denominator here is ME. Certainly there is a lot to be done on a day-to-day basis, both at work and at home, but my life is no different than anyone else in that regard. I kept hoping that things would slow down, but I have finally accepted that they will not. I have a husband and two young children, a house, and a full time job outside of the home. This is just my state in life right now. I love it, so I wouldn't change a thing. Therefore however, a Constant Sense of Busyness, along with its annoying cousin, Perpetual Forgetfulness, are simply my boon companions right now.
I like to be busy, but I don't like to feel overwhelmed. And I think that the worst part is that I have absolutely no idea what to do about it. :0 I suppose I could worry less about things, but it's not like that is an instant overnight solution.
I truly enjoy my hobbies and avocations outside of my family and my job: Dancing, knitting/crocheting, reading, and writing. But I am starting to feel a bit stressed about fitting in the activities surrounding them. Dancing and knitting are mostly not a problem. This is the busy dancing season, but it only lasts for 3 months out of every year. My reading time suffers, to be sure, but I do what I can, and don't stress about it. This is why we restructured the book club, and so far so good! Writing, on the other hand, I've been thinking about this a lot.
I don't anticipate ceasing writing generally, or on this blog. But I have to admit that I'm feeling the time pinch a bit when it comes to my writing projects. I had something planned for the summer that I am not certain I'm going to be able to do anymore, because I fear it would officially put me over the edge into I Bit Off More Than I Could Chew territory.
There is really no point to this post, in case you were still wondering. :0 I just figure that some of you may be experiencing something similar in your lives, and we could relate together.
*group hug!*
I suppose that it's possible that some weeks there may be less than three posts. I really don't want that to happen, but life is unpredictable. So if that happens, I will have to learn to accept that. This blog has always been a refuge for me, and I do not plan on letting it go. But I do plan to endeavor to let go of my feelings of control about it. We enjoy our time together here, you and I, and I want that to continue. There is no need for stress anywhere in our happy relationship. :)
Last spring I did a re-evaluation of my existence here on the blog, and it turned out really well. Thus, I suppose I'm going through another spell like that. Where is God leading me? Should I change up the structure somewhat? How can I alleviate these feelings of anxiety over meeting my writing goals each week?
I will be keeping this all in prayer, as I hope you will as well. I have more of a sense of community here on this blog than ever before, and I cherish it, truly.
If you have any suggestions, I am all ears in the comments. :)
